Well that sucked...

So as you can probably see, I haven't posted on here in, ohhh...6 months or so... Wow.

So a lot has happened in 6 months, some good, a lot bad (or at least bad right now, I always believe stuff happens for a reason). I wasn't creating things for the first couple months, but roughly in the last month, my juices have been flowing.

The main reason I haven't put anything up in 6 months is because I moved. We were only out for 2 weeks, and my roommates stepmother (aka raging bitch) slapped us with an eviction because she didnt like how we payed the rent. Literally, that was the reason. We bounced back and forth whether or not we were actually gonna move out, and then we thought we were staying. The day after what would've been the last day of the 30 day notice, we get a call at 8 in the morning that we have to be OUT that day.

So all of my shit went in a rental truck, where it sat for over a week. The rental company told us we had to bring the truck back by the end of business day or we were gonna get it reported stolen on us, so back the truck went and our shit all put into a truck owned by my dads work. That was a big generous break at that point, but it turned out to be another nightmare cuz our shit ended up sitting in that truck for 2 months.

Meanwhile tension at home were crazy high, my dad was constantly afraid his boss was going to find out what was in the truck, we were stressed cuz house situations got switched and lost and false promised the whole time. We "had"at least 3 places; all fell through. We (my boyfriend and I) were living on my moms couch while our roommate was camped at her grandma's place in Leisure World. And on top of all of THAT, she finds out she got cancer.

She had a full hysterectomy at 24, at least thats what she was told. Come to find out, there's a partial ovary in there because the first surgery to take it out didn't get it all, and after taking hormone replacements, it regrew. She's miserable, I'm sad for her, frustrated I'm still in the living room of my parents house, bummed i still don't have a job and annoyed that her doctors suck. Seriously, these guys are a piece of work. Once she was scheduled for the surgery, her insurance denied her. Then slated again, her doctor's mother dies in China, and he has to leave for 2 weeks. Meanwhile, shes constantly going to the ER and dealing with her insane grandmother, her cunt of a step mother (i only use that word when i truely, truely mean it, and OH do i mean it).

On top of all the waiting and waiting, shes gone to the ER at least 25 times, and now their getting stupid about giving her pain meds, cuz shes looking like a junkie. She's got a saying now, "i'm done". I don't blame her, I hate seeing what this is doing to her. I'm sick of it and i don't even have cancer! She's one of my best friends, and i just want her healthy and shit back to the way it was.

Creatively, I havent done a lot. I really should, I have all the time in the world, basically. I've taken pictures here and there, i've done a couple paintings, but i really haven't stayed diligent about it, and it makes me mad how lazy I am.

I'm looking (slowly) into getting a job, i'm sick of not having my own money and draining my poor boyfriend. He swears its fine, but I can see the stress taking its tole on him, lately its just been worse. He wants a new job so terribly, but can't leave until he has something, and never has the time off to go apply and interview anywhere. Plus, hes extremely picky, so that's not helping his situation.

I'm trying to not be as picky either, I've applied to places, but nothing too seriously. I want something part time and easy, something I won't stress over, cuz that's the last thing i need right now. I've gained too much weight and more hair has turned gray from all the stress in the last 6 months.

The bright side? Things happen for a reason, I swear by that. I look back at things now and think, I just need the patience cuz its all gonna figure itself out. It has before when I thought there was no end in sight, I just gotta keep reminding myself of that. We went camping 2 weeks ago, and it was way needed. I havent been legit camping in YEARS. Just to be in the wilderness was so exhilarating. It rained for a good hour when we first got there and it was just so refreshing! 4th of July was awesome, always is a much needed day of family and fun.

Besides the small "dates" my dude and I can A) afford and B) make time for, (leaving the dog at home has become a slight toll on my parents, he has anxiety and can't be left alone) things haven't really picked up. I really hope my roomie can get her surgery ASAP, and things can start to swing back towards normal. I don't want to be in the living room through Christmas, and with all this stress and uncertainty, its kind of looking like this is where its heading...

Day 97

It's 1:42am and im sitting in here by myself again (henry's last night of overnights) and i finished the line drawing of this:

I think im gonna take my time filling it in tomorrow, and possibly fix the beak, im not diggin it now, but that's todays :)

Day 96: back on track

So henry's been working overnights, and i've had to sleep alone. i don't like it. so i made this for tonight because i was missing him:

the break: day 91-95

So i finally fell off the wagon. it got close a couple times, but i officially didn't create anything from last friday to today. heres why:

friday, we went to sam's house to finalize "moving in" stuff. met up with her dad and step mom, talked, hung out, came home...then i get a call that sam's dude pushed her down and she was scared he was coming back, so we raced over there and spent the night. saw a movie, hung out, got no sleep, started to get a migraine...then comes saturday

saturday: i took a dissolving tab for a migraine that sam gave me, DIDN'T work. i was dizzy and sick ALL day. couldn't sit up without then throwing up, thought we were gonna have to make an ER run, but i ended up getting over it (12 hours after the initial dose) didn't get home till 2 in the morning.

then sunday: as i was still kinda sick, i didnt feel like doing anything, but we had to inform my parents of the official move. after that goes smoothly, my mom informs me the cat has been peeing blood for 2 days (while i was gone :( )

monday: spent the whole day sad and crying, knowing this would be the last day i had with my cat. gave him a good brushing (of course all the fleas are gone now), fed him fancy things, let him sleep all over me.

this morning, i woke up and carried him to the vet, didn't let him go until they were injecting the shit. i held him as he left me...

im so sad that i lost my little guy. i watched him be born, i helped him when he broke himself as a kitten and was in different casts for weeks on end. i spoiled him, i dressed him up, i played with him, i loved him...he was the best cat.

i can't believe i had him for almost 18 years. i was 7 when i got his mom, she gave birth to them within 6 months of getting her, and he outlived them all: mom, brother, our dog. he was the sweetest, snuggliest, best cat ever, and im so sad hes gone. this small house suddenly seems big and empty without him around...

ill try and pick things up again tomorrow...

Day 90

So i decided i need to practice my simple lines a little more, so i decided to try my hand at a maneki neko or lucky cat :) and here's what i came up with for today:

i think i've gotten better if i do say so myself. i started on the head and then the body, then the details, and the more i did, the better it got, ergo- the head is kinda wobble and the details look much better...

i think im either gonna fuck with this one a little more tomorrow, add things to it, OR im gonna do another cat entirely, just so i can work on the pen tool some more. im impressing myself!

day 89

made a hello kitty with the pen tool, mainly to practice curves n shit...i need to get better at simple designs, for whatever reason, smaller, more complicated lines are way easier....

eighty8

we were supposed to hang out at my friends house, but she got sick. since we were in the neighborhood we stopped by Signal Hill and happened to come across the most epic bubble maker in the world. apparently the shit is a concentrate that has to sit for a couple days before you can use it, and obviously is works cuz the bubbles were HUGE! i think it was a tad too windy for them, but they blew down the hill perfectly and ended up generating a whole crowd of people!

so i took a few photos:

and on the 87th day:

Audrey was finished:

ta-da!

eight and six

im gonna post this now, cuz im really trying to stay on top of shit. and cuz im borderline drunk and want to get this on here before i fuck it up (and its really taking me a while to type this, without deleting a bunch) heres what i have so far:

its audrey from Funny Face, my fave :)...my dude tries to say that i look like her but i think im very from it :)

did a little more before bed, ill attempt to shade and finish her tomorrow. Yay for line art! (and getting better!)

day 85: all done :)

i posted yesterday of what i started to make, and today i finished it :)

day 84

this is only sort of done, i started it late tonight and im not gonna finish before i go to bed, so ill screen shot my progress for today:

im making a "line drawing" again, but this time with the skills i learned on the previous one being put onto one of my own photos :)

so far only the eyes and eyebrows cuz the lashes were giving me a hard time...but so far so good, i'd say!

day 83

so i decided to make 2 today since i kinda suck at posting these. i'd at least "punish" myself and make more than necessary. i messed with "photo filters" to give them a "lomo" type feel, and different "artistic" filters to make them painterly. Added "welcome home" to the one cuz i thought it looked like a post card. The End.

day 82

so if you google meyercord mermaid's, you get these awesome mermaid pictures. i messed with shit and added a border :)

day 81

so a friend posted the original picture as her cover photo, and i took it and messed with the hue/sat to make it purple/yellow colors and added zombies attack :)

day 80

So a lot of drama went on today, lost a "friend", fuck her, good riddance. So i made a quick one today:

day 79

i was so bored today, plans fell through with my best friend (she got the flu, apparently), and then we couldn't think of something to do with ourselves, so i made this and sulked.

day 78

I've noticed i've gotten very lazy lately, not uploading daily like i said i would, not really feeling the motivation to do good shit, etc.

I've had other shit on my mind, so these little boredom creations i make in the middle of the night is the only thing i can come up with. my dude's been working overnight's and im getting antsy/nervous about big opportunities coming up so i havent been as focused or creative.

Which is really annoying, i keep telling myself to paint something, think of something to paint anything, but i got nothing...

so here's for today:

and here's hoping i find some motivation...

day 77

i decided to try and edit my own photos. i kinda suck at doing "artsy" things to pictures, so here's one attempt with just a filter:

i really only liked how the blue hair turned crazy colors, so i got lazy and left it like that...whatever.

365 - 289 = day 76

i got crazy with a spirograph, haven't seen one of these since i was little, and even then, the girl at my school who had it wouldn't let me play with it...guess it was cuz i was rough?

day 75

seventy 4

day 73

I really need to hit "publish" when i do late night things, anyway, here's actually today's even though last night and right now are back to back...

day 72

just another quick one before i hit the hay. kings sucked and ive watched way too many netflix movies to stay awake anymore.

Day 71

my old man has been going through a bunch in the past couple days. He started out with a pus pocket on his back that i had to lance and squeeze out (disgusting), thought i got it all, but i didn't. Ended up having another one just below the original, so we had to take him to the vet.

I've been dreading this for a long while now, he's 17 and a half (this picture is probably 5 years old). He ended up stressing out the first day we took him in, they had to give him oxygen, but he was fine. we brought him back this morning to finish the testing he needed and the dr informed us that hes got fluid in his lungs and his heart is a tad enlarged and his intestines are "thick" (ew?), but apparently all of these could be associated with hyperthyroidism (which would be a pill daily). She said that these signs (on an old cat) happen quickly (usually) and apparently his has been like this for a while (she said he's adjusted to the breathing with %50 less lung capacity). If its not that, it could be that he's just old and this is his body shutting down. He's got blood work results in the morning and im praying they say he just needs pills.

He's the last of my babies. I had his mother from the time i was around 8, she died a couple years ago. I watched him be born, i've raised him and tried to keep him happy into his old age. I won't let him suffer, but i don't think im ready if tomorrow's it...

Day 70

So yesterday i made a shitty skeleton thing, today, i tried to make a better one. burt wasn't working, so i gave him giant baby eyes :)

Day 69

half-assed attempt at making a skeleton thing on top of a picture...so sue me.

Day 68

I'm all congested, tired, and grumpy...this is what i made today...now i'm going to take a nap

Day 67

before going to sam's to spend the night, i made this :)

Day 66

some old and new brushes together: oh the places you'll go!

it's a little hard on the  eyes, but that's what i get for rushing it today.

Thursday, day 65

we went to disneyland today with henry's mom, his mom's aunt mary, and mary's son zack. they had never been to disney (well mary had, but it had been 30 some odd years, so its basically new shit) and they took all the pictures. i took some on my phone, but i wasn't planning on taking any for myself, so when i got home i downloaded some more brushes and made this.

sixty four

since i still feel like poo and i'm not doing much today, here's a super simple one.

Day 63

So i started to feel like i was getting the flu or something today, had a fever or something, a cough start, my head hurt. So before i go lie in bed for the rest of the night, i thought i'd post this for today first:

it was quick and dirty, but i feel like shit, so there.

Day 62

We went to the LA Kings open skate tonight (took about 100 pictures so I won't be posting them all). We got lucky and scored the free tickets by chance, took the metro blue line up to Staples Center and watched our boys skate for about an hour. It was crazy how close we were sitting, i've never been so close, i've gotten close-ish one other time at staples and 12 rows up from the net at the Pond , but never 6 rows from the glass, on the isle. SO CLOSE! it was awesome and makes me WAY more antsy for this season to start on saturday!

Day 61

today was a small one, i found an awesome picture online, added a filter and some text and brushes, voila!

Day 60 (two months?! that's it?!)

I'm actually sorta bummed i fucked up and didn't take any pictures of my godson, Isaiah's, birthday present. He turned 4 and he's obsessed with cars (and dinosaurs apparently) so I made him a Lightning McQueen and Mater panels :)

I really hate that we (my dude and i) wait so long in between seeing our godson, sometimes it's 6 months to close to a year before we see him, which is terrible on our part. Plus, he forgets us :( and I hate that.

I've seen him about 3 times in the past month though, which i love cuz he started remembering me, and not from when his mom says "it's nina" and he's forced to hug me, i really like that. And now that i'm about to be a bridesmaid in his mom's wedding (coming in nov) i really hope i see him so much, he runs and hugs me and actually likes hanging out with me, here's hoping!

Day 58

I have a (weird) fascination with anatomical hearts. I don't know what it is, but i think they're awesome looking, and i love when super pretty things are

*EDIT* apparently this saved as a draft and i didnt know it (the internet was freaking out and when i hit "publish" it didn't) so when i published day 59, i had to "re-publish" but blogger thought "publish for the first time" #58, so that's why they're out of order...whatever.

DAY 59

So I've been playing around with the layer blending and painting that i can do in PS and i really like this blurry, soft color effect i stumbled upon. Plus, I love eyes, it's my favorite thing. So I ended up pairing pretty ladies, colors, cameras, and eyes and made this thang!

Day 57

Posting this one early since it's technically wednesday (1:46am) and i was playing around with this one and cracked myself up.

Day 56

So i was playing with different layer blending changes with colors and liked the saturated watercolor effect i got with the hard light blending. I titled it "thanks handsome".